This writer first heard of the concept of forgiving in a meaningful way from Edgar Cayce's Association for Research and Enlightenment [A. R. E.] in Virginia Beach. A researcher had come up with a 40 day exercise of forgiving. However, she never tried it. She thought it would take too long.

      Years later, at an A. R. E. Wayshowers retreat, a friend, John Yoder, presented a nine step process of forgiving self and another party that one was having difficulty with. John had issues with his ex wife and another person with whom he worked. He recommended doing the exercise once in the morning and once in the evening daily until the desired result occurred. This was more appealing but still no action taken.

      Then, she had an experience which brought her own anger front and center. As a result of being hit upside the head with a mega dose of Light/Love, she became aware that she carried a core of frozen anger in her heart. She had carried this for decades, since before she was two. She was made aware that it was time to let it go.

      She reviewed her notes on John's presentation. Reduced the steps to five:
      - Express gratitude for the opportunity the anger presented.
      - Affirm love of self.
      - Forgive self.
      - Affirm love for the other person.
      - Forgive the other person.

      She selected a person to forgive. She began. On day 2, she decided this would take too long. She would do it whenever she thought of it throughout the day. On day 3 of the revised practice, she noticed a shifting in herself. She had forgiven the person. She felt lighter.

      She started again with a different person. She saw that forgiving one person at a time would take forever and changed the formula. After thanking the universe for the opportunity, she said to self:
     "I love me,
      I forgive me,
      I love everybody,
      I forgive everybody."

      On the afternoon of the 3rd day, she again noticed a shift in herself and realized she had indeed forgiven everyone. Self programming works. She felt lighter and free. Now she had to release the frozen core of anger from her heart. She continued the exercise daily, as well as other suggested practices.

      Part of the process was that she allow her heart to be broken. Previous efforts to have her release her anger had failed as she refused to compromise and to cooperate. Everything was explained to her now and all her questions were answered.

      How? Telepathically. By her Oversoul.

      She was given a target date of two years. From the day of becoming aware of her anger, Sept. 4, 2007, she gradually let go until finally releasing it completely on July 27, 2009, with about 6 weeks to spare. Letting go is akin to birthing a child.

      It noticeably increased her capacity to hold and anchor the Light.

      And Soul self now resided in her heart instead of in her throat chakra.

      She marveled that she had been able to accomplish all that she had achieved prior to releasing the anger.

      She also realized she now needed a complete makeover. She was making the right decisions for the wrong reasons, the wrong decisions for the wrong reasons, the wrong decisions for the right reasons and occasionally, the right decisions for the right reasons. It took about ten years to modify herself. She was now functioning with the motivation of a "normal" person

      Then Covid-19 hit. And, over time, she has become more of a hermit.

      How did this anger develop? She had an inappropriate relationship with a teenage relative who was babysitting her. It was terminated as soon as discovered and the person removed from her life before she was 21 months. She reacted to the absence with anger.

      The matter, understandably, was never discussed by beings in the physical. Her husband learned of it after he dropped the body. He volunteered to direct the lila (leela) created to help her heal. They still communicate, sometimes across all of creation. He is reincarnating as a female.

      A result of this experience is she has become consciously aware that our true nature is Love. Her regular use of the forgiveness mantra enables her to love everyone, regardless of their intentions. Forgiving benefits the forgiver. This experience shows how our own decisions really control our life.

      Our choice.